First of Three

We are back from our first trip to St. Petersburg, Russia.  What a beautiful city!  We loved it!  We had such an amazing time meeting our girls and getting to see the sights of their birthplace.  We have absolutely fallen in love with that city.

From Eric:

Meeting our girls for the first time was a moment neither of us will ever forget.  Prior to meeting them they had never seen us, never heard our names, but the thought of a mama and papa was clearly on their minds.  We can't describe to you the moment we arrived at the baby home.  All the kids were playing outside.  I was feeling too much pressure and felt too awkward to pull out the video camera, but the moment is etched into my memory for eternity. 

I, more than Traci, was a little nervous about having girls.  Boys…they are easy…throw a ball, grunt, wrestle them to the floor and they are having a ball.  Girls, I wasn't so sure about.  Traci on the other hand knows exactly how to handle little girls and I just kind of followed her lead.    

All the kids were outside when we got to the baby home for the first time.  I remember the feeling of walking around the playground.  I was excited and nervous.  Would they want to be with us, would they throw a tantrum, etc?  First passing one group, then another.  All the kids had hats on so making out their faces wasn't really possible.  "Mama", I heard her before I saw her as Ariana "Nastia" ran out of her group and literally jumped into Traci's arms.  Next Elliana "Tasia" ran from the same group.  She's only 18 months so I was surprised that she was doing this as well.  She ran right to me and I picked her up.  She's tiny, maybe the size of a 1 year old.  Next, came a flurry of activity as we followed them from one playground apparatus to another. 

I left that first visit thinking what just happened!  The first visit was surreal.  It wasn't the best of our visits as those came later as we got to have some inside bonding time with the girls, but it was a moment neither of us will ever forget. 

We learned later when we met with the social worker that their mother had been an orphan who aged out of the institution at age 18.  She had Ari shortly thereafter.  Ari and Elli won't spend a day longer in the baby home than we are required to let them.  Their future is full of hope and promise! 

There are lots of videos and pictures on facebook documenting the trip.  If a picture is worth a thousand words, a video must be worth a million.  Not much I can say here can convey those thoughts as well as the videos.  I can tell you that I think Ari is really special.  She's smart, engaging, and funny.  At one point though, we are pretty sure she was sassing us in Russian!  Elli, was a bit harder to pin down at first because she has just recently starting walking well and was always on the move.  Plus, it's been so long since either of us had an 18 month old.  She catches on to what her sister is doing really fast though.  I bet that in 6 weeks when we go back she'll have changed a lot.

My birthday, August 16th, is our target date for going back.  It's a lot to ask of the courts, but we are hoping none the less to have court in August so we can bring them home at the end of the summer. 

Last night Luke shared something with me that took me by surprise.  I'm not sure his mom even knows about this yet as she was already asleep.  Each night, we uploaded videos and pictures and called home via Skype.  This way the call was free and we could see each other on video.  That was awesome and helped us miss the boys less.  Luke told me that after he had watched the video of the girls one night as he laid in bed that "tears starting streaming down his face because he wanted so badly to be able to go and see them and hold them."  I think he's going to make a great big brother to the girls!  I also think that we are blessed to have the Holy Spirit working on all of our hearts.  I know God must be doing the same thing for the girls.

Leaving was hard.  On the one hand we missed home and the boys were really starting to miss us by day 10.  We sensed it on the last couple of calls.  We also recognized that the girls were getting quite used to us and the little bit of freedom we brought them each day.  We can only hope that they understand why we had to leave.  Before Silas was born, I wondered if I could love him as much as I loved Luke.  Of course I learned that I could.  I also wondered if I would love the girls as much as I do the boys, that question has been answered as well.    Our bond will be unique and one of a kind.  I can only imagine what it will be like to have them home and what a day looks like a year from now with them a part of our family.  Until that time though, it's as if part of us is missing.  A part we didn't even know existed 7 months ago.