Wow, I never knew I could feel so many emotions at one time. Most of them on opposite ends of the spectrum from each other. Anxiousness, excitement, joy, thanksgiving....Fear, apprehensiveness, sadness, guilt. Yes, that is my emotional status for the last month. Would you like to live with me? Have pity on my husband! He deserves it.
My boys have never been too far from me. When they have been, they have always been in the care of trusted family members who care for them as much as we do. My heart is torn right now though. Half of my heart is in Russia and the other half is sitting here with me watching cartoons. If I go where my other half lives, then I am still not whole. This is torture! What is worse, is knowing that this next trip will still require me to leave half my heart in a foreign country, with strangers. I have to daily had it over to God. Trust that he is taking care of my precious girls until I can bring them home in about a month. I have to keep reminding myself that God is the one who gave me these four amazing gifts in the first place and remember his promises. He will care for them better than I ever could. And he loves them more than I ever could. He created them and they were a part of His family before they were made a part of mine.
Lot's of travels in the next month. Please pray for travel safety, smooth adoption processing and smooth transition from party of 4 to party of 6!
My boys have never been too far from me. When they have been, they have always been in the care of trusted family members who care for them as much as we do. My heart is torn right now though. Half of my heart is in Russia and the other half is sitting here with me watching cartoons. If I go where my other half lives, then I am still not whole. This is torture! What is worse, is knowing that this next trip will still require me to leave half my heart in a foreign country, with strangers. I have to daily had it over to God. Trust that he is taking care of my precious girls until I can bring them home in about a month. I have to keep reminding myself that God is the one who gave me these four amazing gifts in the first place and remember his promises. He will care for them better than I ever could. And he loves them more than I ever could. He created them and they were a part of His family before they were made a part of mine.
Lot's of travels in the next month. Please pray for travel safety, smooth adoption processing and smooth transition from party of 4 to party of 6!
Hi Traci! I am glad you posted this on fb so I could find your blog and follow your journey! How fun to see photos of your sweet girls and boys! I will be praying for you. I can't imagine the valleys and mountains you will travel over the next few weeks, but I know HE will be walking beside you the whole way!
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